Thursday, August 18, 2016

4 weeks = 1 month

The other night, when driving home from a late dinner run to Cafe Rio with Angie and Mom I noticed the moon - it was full.  I was instantly brought back to the night I went into labour with Mylo and the drive to the hospital where I gazed at the moon during contractions, and said to Luke  "I bet the hospital will be busy tonight."  Then I was overcome with feelings of disbelief that it has been long enough for their to be another full moon.  

This past month my life sure has changed, my love grown and the evidence that I am not quite as young as I used to be (literally) staring at me in the face (when I look in the mirror).  We have had 1 case of mastitis, 3 bilirubin tests, too many chick-fil-a meals to admit to publicly and Luke out of town for two of those weeks.  We are so lucky that my Mom is approaching her 6th week here and and that Angie could spend 10 days here as well,  Jamie, Erika and Papahashi got to visit so Tracen and Rai have been spoiled with attention.

Tracen has taken to playing games, real games like Sequence, UNO (that Rai calls "who knows"), connect 4 and chutes and ladders.  All our guests have played lots and lots of games and it has been a lot of fun.  The boys also have taken a few trips to the nature park Two Ponds, and each time they have seen different things, the one day they had a run-in with a rattle shaking rattlesnake (poor Angie and Mom) and it was a great learning experience.  There have been trips to the zoo, museum and library and lots of soccer playing and play-doh too.  Angie built and re-built Star Wars lego with Tracen, counted his money and made a paper chain countdown to his birthday and the first day of school.  My Mom showed the boys a video of "make em' laugh" from Singing in the Rain that they just love and Rai loves to try to sing it and dance to it.  Rai sure seems to have grown up so much in the past month and with me being occupied, had to give up some of his momma's boy ways and has really gotten some independence.  

Mom leaves Saturday, and I am trying not to think about what that means for me, but I guarantee that i am just doing my best everyday.  Tracen was supposed to have his first day of school but caught a stomach bug from Rai and I'm just praying me and Mom don't get it.  It has been fun to see the boys filling their older brother role to Mylo and they do it so well, he is sure loved.  

Life is changing quickly and so is Mylo.  So far he has weighed in the 28th and 26th percentiles respectively making him our smallest baby, but the past couple days I have had to put his newborn sleepers away because he is too long.  He is also fussier than my other boys, putting me on a quest of what I can/can't eat and what he likes.  He has a definite witching time of day that hits around 8-9pm - usually a fresh diaper, essential oils, a tight swaddle and change of position help a bit.  He also has more hair than the other boys as well, which is crazy after baths and he loves getting it washed.  He loves to be held sitting up, and has gotten strong and pushes hard against my hand when he wants to lay back.  He has the same peace fill my heart when I hold him that I had with the other boys and they must feel it too because the boys love to hold him.  

 Finding our routine with him hopefully will come soon.  We are so fortunate to have become this family of 5 and I am learning and growing more and more each day which hopefully means I am becoming a better person through it all.   Last night, while my Mom soothed a fussy Mylo in his witching hour, I tried to make muffins (that Rai loves and actually eats) and I forgot the sugar, I had to laugh.  Perhaps that is the most challenging thing for me, making sure that each of the boys gets quality time with me and knows that I still love them SO much.  The sleep can wait, the patience will grow and these days won't last, which is comforting and sad all at the same time.  

This post is a little all over the place, but that is my mind lately haha.  

Unfortunately this face is one we see a lot of lately.  


1 comment:

KandyJill said...

Oh my goodness, I love him so much! He's such a handsome boy and is sure lucky to have such an amazing mama... and wonderful brothers and a great dad of course!